Lately

Lately,
I feel lost and vulnerable,
in this dull life of mine,
alone by myself from time to time,
although in a crowded place,
I'm invisible to their naked eyes.

Lots of friends I have,
but feels as if I have none,
good and bad relationships I've been through,
but everything has gone and it's done.

Lately,
I just wanted to cry,
no tears comes out,
shouting, screaming I have tried,
only can hear it in my head,
laughing is impossible for me now,
and smile slowly fades away.

I'm back on the ground,
crawling in this empty world,
like a missing toddler,
looking for his mother,
and he knew, surely, no where to be found.